The Women

I am constantly on a quest to become a better human being. I try to explore new things, foods, books, art, movies, music, people. I am a firm believer that if you are not constantly changing or growing, then you become one of those boring people who sit at home every night watching E! as your source of major news. And who wants that? Not me, that's for sure. I try to explore every option available to me. I meditate. I (try) to eat healthy and exercise, and I try to be a giving and all around nice gal.

But last night I was confronted with a major hurdle in this quest. I was brought face to face with one of my very own issues. Women. Before you jump down my throat, let me explain. First, as you may have derived, I am a woman. So I don't "hate" women. I am a feminist and proud of it. I just don't really like that many women I meet. I always tell my lady friends to feel lucky, because I don't have the time or tolerance required to be friends with many women. When I meet a new woman she has a very small window of time to prove to me that she is not one of the ones who annoys me. Unfair? Maybe. But maybe not. It was brought to my attention that I might not have given a certain lady a fair shake. Again, I'm not sure that I agree with that, but it at least deserves some exploration.

Men are easy to read. They don't play games designed to deceive. With men what you see is generally what you get. They tend to be a lot less sneaky than their female counter parts. I know this sounds a bit sexist, and maybe it is, but I am a woman and I know what I am talking about. The problem is: not ALL women are lame, boring, self-centered, game playing twits - but I feel like they are. Maybe I don't give them a fair chance. Maybe. But when I meet a girl and she talks like a valley girl, has no real knowledge of the world around her and is obviously more concerned with her looks than anything else I find it hard to want to get to know her.

Sure, there are men like that. But with men, it takes but a second to see it. They just put it out there. I don't have to spend time getting to know a guy only to find out that underneath his carefully planned out exterior is an empty center. Women have a very calculating way of presenting themselves; one way for men and another way for women. I hate that. And therein lies my problem. How do I get past my issues with women and give them a fair shake with out ending up wasting time on a bunch of assholes?

The answer is, I don't know. I am a pretty badass chick, and I completely understand someone wanting to hang out with me. I would want to hang out with me. But, I am also just to damn old to sift through female game play. I know when a woman is being fake and I stop right there. I would like to get to know more women and maybe give them more of a chance, but it is going to be a hard road ahead. There are a lot of creative, cool, funny, intelligent woman out there and I would love to meet them and collaborate with them. But, I guess I can't do that if I shut them off before I get to know them.