Closure

Break-ups are never easy, and this will be no exception. You and I have been together (off and on)  for a long time. We share many memories. But, it is time to say goodbye. I have to be strong this time and let go, so I am telling you now in no uncertain terms that it is over between us. I am not discounting all the good times we have had together, or the times you have been there for me - and there have been many. But the fact of the matter is: You are no good for me. Being with you makes me feel good at the time, but when I wake up the next morning I feel like shit. You cause me to look, smell and feel horrible. And you are expensive. I need to spend my money on things that make me feel good about myself.

My friends and family are sick and tired of my ups and downs with you. One day we are together and the next we are not. I keep coming back to you time and again. You have turned me into a liar. I say we are through, and there you are again Friday night. But not this time. This time I am going to do what is right for me and walk away from you. That means no more hanging out with you in bars, and that means no more late night "one last time" bullshit. It is over.

I'll miss you terribly, and it will be hard to get over you, but it must be done. I want a life  that makes me feel good about myself and you don't do that. You make me hurt. You make me unattractive and you make me dependent. I don't like to be, and refuse to be any of those things. So again, it's over.

This might be the last time we see each other for a while so, I just wanted to say thanks for all the good times, and I'll miss you more than you know. I'll be tempted hang out with you, but if you really love me you'll just leave me alone. We are no good together and you know that. I am just too good for you. So, goodbye cigarettes. Go make out with some dumb 24-year-old who will believe all the lies you tell her cause we are through. "I'll make you look cool", "Baby, I'm what you need right now, I'll make everything alright. Let's get a beer and spend the night together." Bullshit.

Goodbye cigarettes.

And that, my friend is closure.